Reba Riley: post-traumatic church syndrome

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"Editor's Note: Reba Riley is a graduate of 15,000 hours of Christian education, the Focus on the Family Institute and the Ohio State University. When she isn’t selling construction materials for a living, she’s writing a reverently irreverent memoir about Thirty by Thirty: 365 Days. 30 Religions. 1 Chance to Recover Faith by 30.

By Reba Riley, CNN

(CNN)–At 20, while studying for Christian ministry, I became a victim of "post-traumatic church syndrome."

The how isn’t as important as the what: My soul had grown obese with doubt, and I could no longer squeeze into my religion. Like every good Evangelical Poster Child, I had been raised with Believe-It-All theology (lest God spit me out of His mouth in disgust!), so when I chose to Believe-It-None I became God’s holy puke.

When faith is your whole identity, rejecting it is not unlike swan-diving into a bed of nails. It’s spiritual suicide; you’ll be forced attend a thousand little funerals for your shattered self, each worse than the last.

The pain is so brutal, so intense, that it’s easier to tell yourself lies: Faith isn’t important; I don’t need God; I can partition off my soul with demolition tape and tip-toe around the condemned site forever.

Except that eventually? I couldn’t play pretend.

At 29, I realized with utter horror that I yearned to be "someone who believed." In what, I had no idea. . . "

CNN


Interesting story. What's your take on this?

Does this girl have a problem? If so, what do you think it is?

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Sure she has a problem...but it's a common one. It was my problem. I was raised in the church and a more pious, believing child you would be hard pressed to find. By age 17, I was done with it all! But, and I am forever grateful, God did not let me wander for long. He came after me with a vengeance, truly earning the name of "Hound of Heaven" and at age 20 He brought me back into the fold.

While I didn't check out 30 different faiths, I did try a few in those three years: Atheism, Science worship (Rationalism), Wicca, Bahai, etc.,

The problem is so prevalent that Phillip Yancey wrote an excellent book on what Ms. Riley calls "Post Traumatic Church Syndrome," called "Soul Survivor."